i kinda thought things were working out. i thought there was going to be some change happening. well, guess what havens? change doesn’t always just happen. you gotta make it happen. life isn’t going to work itself out. you gotta work it out yourself.
every time i take classes, i get lazy at the end of the semester. i don’t do projects, i cut class all the time, i just have a general disregard for school. i thought it was going to change this time because it was something i love doing. but no. didn’t change. still the same. so i guess that’s it for school? no. i signed up for classes next semester. why? i have no idea.
i’m trying to work more t get more money but no one is hiring. and i keep forgetting to ask my boss for more hours. it might be possible. plus, i’ll be getting a raise so at least there’s on thing going right.
i’m trying to get more involved on the college group at my church but i can’t sign up for a small group until i know when i am free and i won’t know that until i get a 2nd job…or not. and then it even said it may take a few weeks to place me in a group.
once i am in a group, i am hoping to meet new friends, find roommates and get the hell out of here.
i’ve always wanted to move back to SoCal but the last time i visited, it felt different. i don’t know. i just don’t have that big of urge to move there anymore. i don’t know why. nothing bad happened. and i even have the opportunity to do it. but a lot of things are coming together up here. but a lot of things are also falling apart.
give it all to the Lord, right? right. if only it were that easy.